I want you to pray for me tonight that God will let me preach what He's put on my heart. But I want you to pray something else. I want you to ask God right now to speak to your heart. Blank Brother Frank out and ask God to speak to your heart. I'm really concerned about churches. I've been a missionary for twenty-some years. I've been pastoring eleven years. I've interim pastored a few other churches for a couple of years' time. Something like that. I've seen things. Brother Paul's seen things. Robbie's seen a little bit of it. We live in an era where we've seen the pouring of God's Spirit out on churches. And today, it seems like there's a coldness and a staleness. We'd come in, we'd sit down, we'd get up and we'd leave. There was a time, I know I've seen this, and like I said, I think these other men have seen some of it. I know Paul's seen a lot of it, and Robbie's seen some of it. You could preach the most simple message, and you'd look out in the crowd, and people's hearts were broken. They'd come upon the church and beg you to pray for the children. They'd come and beg you to pray for them. They'd actually pray for their marriage. I mean, they were concerned. You see people under conviction, God save them right before they stood. I've had people cry out right in the church, God save me, I don't want to go to parish. Sometimes I think if the Holy Spirit fell on our church today, it would scare us to death. Most people have never seen 8 or 10 or 15 people saved in one night. I've seen that. Paul's probably seen it. Robby's probably seen it. I miss those days. People say, well, it may not matter too much. No, I'm talking about people that I've watched. Many of them are still alive. Some of them have gone on to be with the Lord. But they show that God really worked a work of grace in their heart. And they've had a testimony for 20, 30 years. I've only seen one revival in my lifetime of 40 years of preaching. What I call, what the Bible said was revival. Because in the church that I pastored, I hadn't even been called to preach. I'd only been saved a few years. I want to tell you a story because it just shows you how things have changed. A pastor invited a man to preach. He was supposed to start on Monday night and go through the next Sunday. That Wednesday night, the preacher got through and he started to come down. And the pastor was sitting on the front row and he got up and he said, If you don't have any more to say tomorrow night than you did tonight, just stay at home. And I'll close Revival out on Friday." That's a pretty bold statement. I don't know what that guy had done that night, but he wasn't doubting God. And as a result of that Revival, it went for two weeks. Two weeks. There was 30-some people saved. And 70 people, counting the ones that were saved, but families and people were saved. It was over 70 people. The church doubled in two weeks. And I'm telling you, most of it was real. I'm not going to say every single one of us, but 98% of it was real. Like I say, a lot of you older people have seen that kind of stuff. I forgot about you sitting over there. You're an old man. You've seen a lot of that. And a lot of men have longed for it so long that they're tired. They're tired. It's hard to get up here and preach Sunday night, Sunday morning, Wednesday night, revivals, Bible conference, and the power of God ain't done nothing. That's not fun. That's not fun. I've got several messages on Longest Lines. How can we have revival? I think we could have revival. But I think hearts are awful hard. We can preach on this. We can preach on that. Everybody looks at you and says you preach a good message. But nothing changes. Nothing changes. Anyway, this message tonight I'm going to try to preach for the grace of God. It's not a rebuke. It's a concern for all of our churches. Now, I have a faithful church. I have a growing church. But everything I'm going to mention here is affecting just about everybody in my church. And I figure our church is a bit like other churches. To some degree, this will affect us. Even the preachers. So, I usually say this, if you think I'm talking to you, I am. Okay? But it's not really me, it's God. It works on me, too. You just get to hear it once. I preached it four or five times in my mind. I studied it. And it beat me then. But if I want to see revival in my own life, in my church, I'm going to have to listen to God's Word. We've got to get a bit serious about the things of God. And being serious is not just saying, yeah, that's right, Brother Frank, we've got to get serious. It's doing something. We have responsibilities. We have responsibility. I want to talk, you had titles. A guy told me one time when I was real young. He said, Brother Frank, when you start preaching, he said, if you can't have a good sermon, have a good title. So I got a good title. And I'll let you judge where it's a good sermon or not. And also, I say I don't preach sermons. I try to get a message from God. I want you to turn to Psalm 41.9. It's a prophetic verse about, or I believe it is, It means some other things, too, in the life of David, but I think it's prophetic for Christ and Judas betraying Him. The biggest enemy we have, I believe, in the Lord's churches today, it's not the enemy without, it's the enemy within. We're self-destructing. We're self-destructing. I don't have any problem at all with any other denomination at all. I'm not attacked by them. I'm not cursed out about them. I'm not, you know, the government don't bother me. But we're destroying each other within. Verse 9 says, Yea, my own familiar friend. You know, over in the Gospels, I'm not going to go over night for the sake of time, but Jesus quite often said Judas was his friend. Yes, my own familiar friend whom I trusted. He was a man with a bag. He was a treasurer of the first church. He trusted him. Now, God knows all things, and the God-man knew everything. But as a man, he trusted him. And the other apostles trusted him. And look what it says, "...which did eat of my bread, and hath lifted up his heel against me." Now if you go over to the side, like I said in the gospel, I'm not going to go over tonight, but if you go over there, you'll find out that Jesus said to that, and eat bread with me in return. So I believe that supports that. I want to preach tonight on parasites. Parasites. Number one, a parasite It's something that lives off of others. The kind of parasite I want to talk about tonight happens to be one that sucks blood. Horse leeches. The two parasites I want to talk about tonight is the horse leech, and then you have these water leeches that get in the water. Even today, they're used in medical field to suck poison and blood out of infection in people's body. They leave them on a certain period of time to get them off. I've never had one on me. I've seen some men that had them on. When I was in the military, you'd get in the swamps of Louisiana, different places in training, and those leeches get on you, and the pain's almost unbearable. But they're slowly, they're a worm type thing, if you don't know what I'm talking about, and they have a head on each end. And they'll get on an animal or a human being, if you don't get them off, And they'll suck the blood out of you a little at a time until it dies. A horse needs to get on a horse. If they don't find out it's on there, it will finally kill the horse. But it takes a long time. The Bible says the life's in the blood. If the life in the blood is sucked out of the church, it's going to die. It's going to die. And so, turn over to Proverbs chapter 30. There's a lot to be said about this particular passage of Scripture, a few verses here, but... In verse 15, it says, "...the horse-leech hath two daughters." And here's what the two daughters cry out. Give! Give! Then it says, "...there are three things that are never satisfied. Yea, four things say not it is enough, the grave, the barren womb, the earth, is not filled with water and the fire that's fed us is not enough. We'll break those down just a little bit. The horse leech will stay on an animal or an individual until they die. It will never quit. It can't get enough blood. That's the only thing that it eats is blood. Slowly. You're not even aware of it. We see churches many times They're content and satisfied with who they are and what they are, or living in the past. And they're dying. Some guy said, you know, he said, every now and then you need to take an autopsy of your church. Examine it. There's some things that I believe a church is a living spiritual organism. If that's true, there's supposed to be life in the church. And life produces life. Dead things don't produce nothing. And spiritually dead people don't produce nothing. So he says here, the horse leech is never satisfied. He can't get enough blood. These two daughters give, give. They're never satisfied. They're full of their own lusts and desires. And then you get down here to the grave. Wonder how many million people have been put in the grave. The ground never resists them. It can't get enough. And then he says here, what's the other one? The barren womb. Women. They're never satisfied with enough kids. If a woman has one child, she wants five or six. Really. I'll tell you a little comparison to that. You know, they've always said that a man will never experience what a woman does having a child. If you witness somebody or preach somebody and God saves them through your life and your ministry and you're talking to them, it's like having a child. Amen, brother. I've got a bunch of them. I'd like to have a thousand more. Amen. It's the same thing. I may not have went through the physical pain, but I've seen life. The directives that God used through my life or through my preaching or something. And I get excited when people in my church, you know, they went to somebody and brought them to church, and God's saying, they had a part in that ministry. They was a part of life. Now, we give it all the glory to God, because His work is in the will to do. And it's the Holy Spirit that convicts and saves. But He does see fit to use people. And it's a wonderful thing. And the more you see people get saved, the more you want to see people get saved. Anyway, so we see there, the grave, the barren womb, that is not filled, the earth is never filled with water. I don't care how dry it gets down here in Georgia. It can rain for three days, and the day after, it's so dry, it still wants more water. Matter of fact, where Brother Paul lives, that's one of the hottest places I've ever seen. It really is. It does get hot over there. And then it says that the fire that's set is not enough. Not enough. You strike a match in the forest fire and it'll keep burning until it runs out of wood. And it would burn more if you give it to it. So these comparisons, I believe, shows you how destructive these things are. And I think there's a spiritual application there. Now, there's two ways you can kill a leech. You can use fire or salt. Those are two biblical terms. So you see the spiritual application? We can use the Word of God. I believe the fire is the Word of God and the salt is the salt of the earth or the salt of the power of God. It preserves us and purifies us. He says, you're the salt of the earth. And that comes by being the Word of God. All right, now I'm going to tell you something else here, if you'll go with me. As I said, there's moral and spiritual parasites, I believe. I believe. I want to talk about the first one. Go to Matthew 25. I want to talk about The Parasite in the Church of Slothfulness. Slothfulness. Matthew 25. I know it's in every book somewhere. Matthew 25 and verse 5. There's a lot of applications you can make to this particular parable, but most of us aren't familiar with it. The ten virgins, five was wise and five was unwise. Look at verse five. While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept. But now five of them did not hurt because they had already prepared. And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom comes to go you out to meet him. And all those virgins arose and trimmed their lamps. And the foolish one said unto the wise, Give us your oil, for our lamps are gone out. But the wise, I understand, not solely shall it be enough for us and you, but go you read to them that they shall sell and buy for yourselves." They should have prepared to send him, but they was too lazy. They was too slothful. The Bible has so much to say about laziness, sloth in the Bible. As a matter of fact, the Bible says a man won't work if he's worth an infidel. Now that application still applies spiritually. If we don't work at the things that God has called us to do, were slothful in the things of God. If a preacher don't do the things that he ought to do as a pastor or a minister or a missionary or whatever, you'd say the man is too slothful and lazy. No reason for that. He's got a parasite in him. And it'll destroy his ministry. And all that, it'll destroy his church. And so, over at Thessalonians, 1 Thessalonians, you might want to go over there, 1 Thessalonians 5, verse 5, something like this. Therefore, let us not sleep as do others, but let us watch and be sober. For they that sleep, sleep in the night, and they that are drunk, are drunk to the night. We're not to be, as the people of the world, and be so unconcerned. When people miss church, they start missing Sunday school. We ought to be concerned. There's a parasite in them. And the next thing you know, Sunday's good, they missed church, they missed Wednesday night or Sunday night, and the next thing you know, they're out of church. And another thing we'd be guilty of, somebody misses church one or two weeks, they come back in the door, we're not glad to see them, we ask them, where are you being? Who wants a reception like that? If the Spirit of God is in them, they're ashamed of themselves already. And then they come back in, instead of people receiving them, they beat them down. I got a sermon I preach on POWs, prisoners of war. And the result of the prisoners of war is church members killing other church members. They don't kill them, they just maim somebody. Their whole Christian life, they never get up off the ground. Because somebody destroyed them when they were young converts. I want to tell you something. I'm not sanctified yet. I am sanctified more than I was the day God saved me, but it took time. And yes, sometimes I even slip back, okay? But God does say a man may fall seven times, he'll get him back up. We ought to be careful. We ought to be careful about how we treat other people within our own body. I'll tell you what. You get a hangnail, that minor, if you get a cut, it's even worse. You baby that thing, you wrap it up, you take care of it, and I do too. We need to be careful how we approach people. It can be dangerous. But anyway, he said there, don't sleep. Proverbs 15, 9's got a little bit to say about that. Proverbs 15, 9 says something like it. The weight of the wicked is an abomination to the Lord, but He loveth him that follows after righteousness. Follows after righteousness. Let's be kind to one another. Be gentle towards one another. And I know it's not always easy. You know, I'm not the easiest person in the world to get along, probably. Ask your pastor, you know. Go to one more place. Go to Ecclesiastes, and we'll get off this point and move on. 1018. Ecclesiastes 1018, But much slawfulness the building detaia. Now what it means, this ain't too hard to understand. If you don't take care of this building, it'll fall down. Your house will fall down. But what about the spiritual house? What about the spiritual house? And through idleness of the hands, the house dropped it through. Over just a few feet, she'd fall down. That's what happened to a lot of our churches. I think Brother Robbie told me that he found one of the Sovereign Grace directors of churches. They put out a few years ago. Over half of them, remember what you said? Over half of those churches don't exist. What happened, Brother Frank? The parasites within their own body. And we're all subject to that. And it's dying all around us and we don't even see it. How many young people are in our churches? I've got a few. I've got a few. The church can't perpetuate without it. Well, God's sovereign. We're just doing what we're doing. We're hanging on. I don't think that's what Jesus intended when He said, go into all the world. Can anyone here say that God's not saving people because I'm going so much and He's still not saving anybody? Can anybody say that? I can't. And I go a lot. But I could go more. That doesn't mean anybody is going to get saved. But I can't look the Lord in the face and say, well, I've done everything I can to reach people. We better wake up. We better wake up. All right. The parasite of worldliness. Look with me over in Second Timothy. I told your pastor here a few weeks ago that I noted about this conference a couple of months, and I prayed a lot about it. I said, I'm going to put you somewhere a little bit different than I usually do at a Bible conference. I said, I want to try to help you and your church. And I meant that. My desire is that people will get right with God. And God will bless you. God will bless you. And walking in disobedience is not going to let that happen. In 2 Timothy 4, I think it's chapter 4, verse 10, For Demas hath forsaken me, having loved this present And it departed to Thessalonica, Crescent, to Galatia, Titus, and to Demelta. But Damascus had forsaken for the world. Now I'm going to get on the drum beat here, but listen to what I've got to say. I have to ask myself this question. Did I spend more time last week watching football or basketball than I did in prayer? Does it hurt? Four hours for a football game, two hours for a basketball game. I'm not saying there's something wrong with a football game or a basketball game. But when you pray 15 minutes a day or 15 minutes a week and you watch a two-hour basketball game or a four-hour football game, or I can talk about car racing or I can talk about golf, you know, fishing, whatever. Things are nice. Listen, your life or mine. When entertainment, and I don't want to get on that hobby horse, but when entertainment becomes more important, more dedicated, more committed than our prayer life, why don't we have revival, Brother Frank? Because nobody is seeking God. We want to sit down for five minutes and God to answer our prayer, save people, bless our churches, and we spend five minutes in prayer. Go over to Nehemiah in the first chapter. I'm not going to turn there tonight, but go over and look. He was concerned about the things of God in Jerusalem. He said he wept night and day. I don't see any tears. We all know it's true. Why aren't there any tears? Why isn't there any shame? Because our hearts are hard. My heart is hard. You think I like preaching like that? I'm preaching to Brother Frank. My heart is hard. I can remember somebody preach the cross or preach just a simple message, and I'd sit there and weep. I don't do that anymore. I'm not going to say I never have a moment when I'm by myself studying or praying that I don't do that. I want to see without. I want to see people blessed. Now, I'm not saying we don't get blessed. But we're getting the showers. We need the rain. You know, we sang that song, showers of blessings. Raindrops we're getting, but we need showers. I'll tell you what, we need a flood. We need a flood. Anyway, let's move on before we get out of time. The Parasite of Pride. The Grace of Humility. Look in 1 Timothy 3.6. We're already in 2 Timothy. Come back a few pages. 1 Timothy 3.6. The Warning to Pastors. But it ain't only to pastors. Look what it says here in verse 6. The Lord don't quickly lay hands on any man, but for if a man not a novice, least being lifted up with pride, fall into condemnation of the devil. Many men fall into that, many church members. Pride, arrogance, self-sufficiency. You don't want to fall into that place where you don't think it's necessary that you need God. But we do. And I can even refer you back to pray. Spend several hours on a sermon and pray for five or ten minutes. Come on, y'all help me. The Word without the Spirit is dead. I want to see God manifest His power. But I'll tell you what, I believe I'm going to have to get my life right before He will empower people. And in the whole church as a corporate body, if they want to see power, if everybody in the church will get it right, there ain't no telling what we will see. Like I said, we still see drops of it. God likes to see a flood, man. I really would. I've got children, I've got great-grandchildren. As a matter of fact, I told you I was a lot older than what I look. I just had my third grandchild last week. Great-grandchild, excuse me. Third great-grandchild. Can you imagine I'm that old, Paul? You know, because you're as old as I am. You're a little older. I had to say that. There's got to be somebody here older than me, surely. But anyway. Pride. All about me, me, me, me. What about me? What about me? It ain't about you. It ain't about me. It's about doing for the glory of God. Anyway. Then there's the parasite of unbelief. What has unbelief done? It keeps down the work of faith. You know, how many times are we guilty of saying, Lord, I believe, help my unbelief. Sometimes I think maybe we use that as a crutch. My favorite scripture in the Bible, I think it's the most powerful message in the Bible. The Bible says Abraham believed God. That's it. Abraham believed God. Do we believe Him? That leads to another point. Go to God and tell Him whatever your parasite might be. Be honest with God. You know, several years ago, I don't like to publicly announce this, but I think it may help somebody. I don't like to center my preaching on myself, but things that truly helped my life, I will try to share them with people. I had to go to God and say, God, I don't love you. What brought you to that point, Frank? I got to the position that I realized that I was more important than the glory of God. You stand before the Lord as the Master, your Creator, your Savior. Say, Lord, I've got to confess I don't love you. I love myself better. What I want is more important than what you want me to have. I don't care if it's sicknesses. I don't care if it's poverty. I've had money and I've been poor. I've been so poor the church had to buy my food for my kids. In my adult life, I've had enough money where when I was out in the world, I'd give a $100 tip. Okay? And I'd stand before my God, my head in shame, and say, Lord, I don't love You. And you know what He said? But I love You. But I love You. It was a turning point in my life. It was a turning point in my life. Sometimes I have to go to God and say, Please, forgive me for not talking to you. Some people still have in their mind that God is this great being so far off that they can't be who they really are. God's people need to learn to be who they are and to realize that Christ's man, Jesus, knows everything about you. He feels everything. He knows everything. And He's waiting for you to talk to Him in that manner. Because that shows you have to depend upon Him. I need Him every hour. I need Him every day. I even tell people, I need Him to take another breath. And when I forget about that, I'm in big trouble. He wants us to depend upon Him. He's our God. He's our power. He's our Deliverer. He's all things to us. The Parasite of Unbelief, we know a little bit about that over in Hebrews. Chapter 3, verse 17. But with whom he was grieved forty years, was it not with them that had sinned, whose carcasses fell in the wilderness? Now if you go over to the book of Numbers, you find out what he said he was displeased about. They would not obey my word. You can have an early death for being disobedient, being a child of God. Forty years, if I understand it right, is something that's like a two-day journey from where they were at to the promised land. And they spent forty years, and every one of them died. Joshua 5, 6, For the children of Israel walked forty years in the wilderness, till all the people that were men of war, which came out of Egypt, were consumed. The only thing left was the children and new babies. Because they obeyed not the voice of the Lord. I want to tell you something. We better learn that God is serious. God is serious. We ought to get serious about the things of God. We ought to be. We talk about we're to be in the world, not of the world. Other than coming to church, how much are we out of the world? So that's if you come to every service, that's approximately three, three and a half hours a week. Is that the only thing we're separated from? Do we want to see revival? Do we want to feel God's presence? We better start taking God seriously. The parasite of self-elation will kill the grace of self-denial. We talked about that a few minutes ago a little bit, but I want to show you one more scripture on that. About pride, self-elation, all about me. You know, there's some people in churches, I've had them, I don't have them anymore. Look in the third John. You know who they are. Y'all probably had them before. I hope you don't have them now. But they're not for anything and against everything. But now let them have an ideal. And other people might go along with it. They'll pout and go to every church member in the church. complained about it, that nobody wants to do nothing. Against everything for nothing. They'll destroy a church. And they destroy it with their mouth. I'm not one to say that church members ought to never talk. And I don't believe all gossip is wrong. I don't call it gossip. If you're truly concerned about an individual If you're truly concerned and want to pray for your pastor and go to somebody and say we need to pray together for our pastor, that's not gossip. Or praying for a church member. If you do it in a manner that's right, but to go and to talk about somebody and just pull them down and degrade them, that's gossip. If it's not lies. We need to all stop that. We need to all stop that. You know the reason we talk about other people? It makes us feel good about ourselves. It makes us feel good about ourselves. God help us. But anyway, over in John 3, and in verse 9, verse 9, I wrote unto the church, But the atrophies, who love to have the preeminence among them, proceed as not. Now that ain't all he done. Wherefore, if I come, I will remember his deeds which he doeth, pratting against us with malicious words, and not content therewith neither doeth he himself receive the brethren." He wouldn't even let some of the apostles come to that church. Now, I don't know if this guy was a pastor, a deacon, an elder in church. I don't know what he was, but he had a powerful position. But he abused it. He didn't even like John. Sometimes those kind of people get in the church. And I'm not saying they've got to leave, but they need to repent. Because they do great destruction. They do great destruction. And then we have the parasite of adverse. That's not covetous, that's what it actually means, but it also means more than that. It means greed. Greed. Greed to have things. You need to have more of what God wants you to have. I'll get on couches here in a minute. Wanting something that somebody else has or wanting something that God doesn't want you to have, you still want it more than God would want you to have. But this is even deeper than that. This is just a hungry and greed for anything from money to power, whatever. It's in our churches sometimes. It's in our churches. It couldn't be a Sunday school leader. It couldn't be the pastor. I tell my church, I think I know what y'all preach down here about this. I'm the pastor. I'm the under shepherd. I'm in a position of leadership and a place that God's called me to teach and lead God's people. But I'm one vote in my church. I'm one vote. Now, do I have a greater influence than anybody in the church? Yes, I do, and I should have. But I've still got one vote. My greatest privilege in my life It's not just being a preacher. It's being a member of one of the Lord's churches. And I am a member. I just happen to have a position of leadership just like you men have in your home. You ain't no better than your wife. You have a different position. You ain't no better than your children. They got a different position. That's all the difference is. And they got responsibilities to carry out as a man, as a father, as a pastor. His wife has a position. And his children's got a position. But we need to stick to them. Be surprised what we find out. So, talk about that. I want to talk about covetousness now. Parasite of covetousness. 2 Peter talks a lot about this. Here's the question. Here's the question. And I wrote this down so I wouldn't forget it. Here's the question we all got to ask. Is there parasites here in our church? Or maybe it would be better to say something like this. Is my sin sucking the blood and the life out of this church? Am I a drag on my church? As I said, the only way to kill a leech or a parasite is by fire and salt. You can't reuse old salt. If you go over to the book of Matthew, it talks about the salt. You're the salt of the earth. The salt's lost its flavor. It's no good for nothing. And you can't replace it. I'll tell you a little bit about that salt. I've got about three minutes left, I think. I'll tell you about that salt in Old and Bible times. It's not like today. You can leave table salt on your table today for a year and it's still good. The old salt they had came out of the mines over there in Jerusalem. If you left it around very long, it lost its savor. It wasn't good for anything. It wouldn't give any flavor. You know what they've done with it? They've put it out in front of their house in the dirt to settle the dust so people could walk on it. What's that time? Tell me, Brother Frank. If you've lost your savor, The only way you're going to get it is God giving it back to you. New salt. How do you do that, Brother Frank? Well, you go over to Psalm 51, and David cried out after his great sin, creating me a clean heart. You see, we've all got heart trouble, not just Brother Frank. We've all got heart trouble. That's where the seed of sin is rooted. It's in our heart. God's people need to repent. And they need to repent tonight. Amen. Will pride keep you? Will slothfulness? All the different points I brought up tonight. Is anyone heart-tenderized enough they can cry out, God help me. God help me. Think about it. Do you want to see revival? Do you want to have the power of God in your life? I was going to read another scripture about Samson. Samson played around with sin, his lust for his flesh. He got so messed up, the Bible says he went to fight the men again like he'd always done in the past. And it said the Spirit of God had left him and he didn't know it. And what he meant was he didn't lose God's Spirit, he left the power of God, the presence of God. He didn't lose salvation. He lost his position. I want to make this very emphasis. Samson broke his covenant with God about the things that a Nazarite has to do. He broke that covenant with God when he told that woman that she cut his hair. It wasn't the long hair that gave him the power. It was God. But he broke God's covenant. Now here's what I want to tell you. I tell my churches from time to time, Every member of this church, or my church, Paul's church, any of these other men's churches, when you made a professional faith or desire to be a member here in the Methodist that we accept members, you made a covenant with God in this church. When you're not upholding that covenant, you broke that covenant. And guess what's happened from that day on? You lose power with God. You quench the Holy Spirit. You grieve the Holy Spirit. And then we wonder why there's no power. God help you. God help me. God help me to get my face before God. And by the grace of God, ask Him to help me get these parasites out of my life. Those that apply to me. Those that apply to you, you talk to the Lord about it yourself. But I tell you what, we need God to break our hearts.